Oh god, I've bitten the bullet...

 After months of lazy Sunday afternoons and nights of reading infertility blogs to 'relax and get ready for sleep', I've joined the swarms of women with PCOS who can't get pregnant and need an outlet.

Now, my heart and my hand want to let it all out right here, right now. They want to tell you every feeling and every thought that I have had over my infertile 2 year period (minimal compared to many of you out there, I know) .... But I want to give you a reason to come back....

So, today I will tell you who I am and my  history:

1997-     10 yrs old - first period

For 3-4 years my Periods were light, every 14 days for 10 days each time. Urgh, I hated the damn thing and prayed for it to disappear.

2001-     14 yrs old - diagnosed with Anorexia. Loss of periods!! woohoooooo
               15 yrs old - on the pill in an attempt to regulate something, instead I choose to skip those sugar pills, no period for me.
2008-      21 yrs old -break through bleeding, regardless of where I am at with the pill. Stop the pill and my period vanished anyway. SCORE!!
               21 yrs old.... Intense psychiatry for depression, anxiety and anorexia, getting my life back on track.
2009-      22/3 yrs old - Meet the man of my dreams. Decide to figure out what's going on... Diagnosed with PCOS. BAM -SHOCK....bit of a ripple somewhere....

2011-      If it happens it happens, no protection, rare periods.
2012-      Referred to Gyno who suggests Ovulation Induction, we're not quite ready.....
               Diagnosed with IBS
               Dec, marry
2013-     March cycle 1- femara, letrozole - follicles don't want to mature. All under 18mm. No ov.
               July cycle 2 - bumped up doses of femara, letrozole and throw in purgeon. Follicle reaches 21mm, more drugs to get me to ovulate, AND I did!!!!!!!! BFN
              August cycle 3- keep with same program as cycle 2. 19 days in, little growth. We decide to cancel.

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